18:25 - i am going to do my best to write a section, edit, and try and finish up the conclusion. 20:01 - finished the section. did some research. gonna try and do more tomorrow.
14:13 - i'm going to try and spend the afternoon writing and / or researching 15:41 - i wrote about 2.5 pages of complete garbage, but i did write it, so there's that. my goal this week is to finish up the mumbo jumbo section so that i can edit it and spend weeks 5-8 editing and writing my intros and conclusions.
it's occurred to me throughout this process of moving out and coming back for breaks that i have a case of mistaken identity. not that i've been mistaken for someone else, but that i've defined myself and found myself in places which are temporary. i find most of my identity in my friends. in who i know and how i know them. how long i've known them. what i do for them, what they do for me. how deep our friendship goes. what they know about me. and that's led to a lot of disorientation as i've moved back and forth between home and university. my church friends aren't the same any more. i don't fit with them, even though i want to. when i walk up to their groups now i'm left out and not let into the circle--i don't belong. i don't think they mean it, but it hurts all the same. i don't fit into the college group at church either, because all those kids go to the local colleges and all know each other. i'm something different--too...
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