the one about bedtimes

my body is used to getting an unholy amount of sleep. and by unholy, i mean i can complete a full week on 5 to 5 & 1/2 hours of sleep a night--with no naps. i need that weekend to catch up on sleep, but i can do it.

when you're at university, away from home, away from bedtimes, away from it's-10-pm-mom-and-dad-are-going-to-sleep-leave-your-phone-downstairs-and-go-to-bed…well, there's no rules. i make my own bedtimes.

oftentimes, i stop functioning around midnight. even if i'm awake, i know i should be asleep, since i'm an early riser. i typically quit homework for the night around then.

but then there's the option of friends.

by that, i mean that everyone's hanging out and having a good time right outside my door in the common area. do i want to join them? yeah, i do. i want to laugh and have fun. so i usually end up staying up a little later. and then there's my bedtime routine, which takes a while since i have skin that hates me, and then maybe i spend a little too much time online, unless i'm super tired and just collapse into bed.

i usually end up falling asleep or putting up my phone at around 1 am. this would normally be fine, even early, for a college student. except i have an 8 am three times a week and get up early every other day to go to the gym because i love working out.

could i self regulate and go to bed early? yeah, totally.

will i?

nah.

tonight i've had it, though--i can't write another word on star wars facism and it's only midnight so i'm turning in the towel early. goodnight, cruel world--tomorrow i'll be alive again and you can't stop me.

--c.

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