the one about my thesis, pt 10

17:19 - i will probably write / edit till i get hungry, eat my dinner, and then write / edit some more. i'm feeling very unmotivated.

18:17 - took a couple of breaks because i am unmotivated but i was editing an easy part. edited about two pages and now i'm going to fix my dinner.

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